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Living With Fear: Kim’s Fight For Mental Freedom – An Interview

Kim is a woman whose life took an unexpected and devastating turn twenty years ago. At the age of 29, she was an up-and-coming attorney with a promising future, celebrated for her sharp intellect and dedication. Tragically, her parents—her closest confidants—died in a car crash. That moment shattered her world and planted the seeds of crippling agoraphobia. What began as fleeting moments of hesitation in public spaces gradually spiraled into complete isolation. The vibrant attorney who once passionately fought for justice was left fighting an internal battle with fear that threatened to consume her.

Fast-forward to today, Kim is still an agoraphobic, rarely desiring or have the ability to step beyond the boundaries of her home. She lives quietly with her three cats—Benny, Luna, and Clover—and her four goldfish. Her once-bustling career is now behind her, replaced by disability due to her mental health challenges. Yet, Kim hasn’t lost her sense of purpose entirely. From within her secluded walls, she offers free legal advice and counseling online to those who need it. She reads the Bible daily and leans on her faith for comfort. Recently, she has started therapy and is praying more fervently than ever for deliverance from the fear that suffocates her heart and soul.

After that brief introduction- let’s get to the interview which I am grateful that she agreed to, in fact she was thrilled to do so. Her intent is that others who aren’t familiar with this condition will learn. And for those who have this diagnosis might feel comfort knowing that they are not alone in this journey and process.

Without further ado – let’s get to the interview.

Isaiah 41:10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

CD: Kim, I’m so glad to be able to talk with you today and to hear your story. Can you share how your journey began, and how life brought you to this point?

KIM: Thank you for reaching out, CD. It all started when I was 29 years old, right after my parents died in that awful car crash. They were my rock, my anchor—losing them made me feel like I was adrift with no compass. At first, I thought it was just grief keeping me inside. But as weeks turned into months, it became clear that fear had taken hold of me. I couldn’t step outside without my heart racing or my hands trembling. Eventually, I stopped going to work altogether. It wasn’t a decision—it was like my body just refused to let me leave.

CD: That must have been incredibly hard. You were an attorney, right? What was your career like before all this happened?

KIM: Yes, I was an attorney, and I loved my job. I was passionate about fighting for those who couldn’t fight for themselves. I was building a strong reputation and even being considered for partner at my firm. One of the youngest of all time. I finished high school at 15, went to college and earned my degree all rapidly, and at an extremely young age. But when the fear set in, everything crumbled. After months of avoiding the office, I had no choice but to go on disability. That was another blow—I felt like I’d let everyone down, including myself.

CD: That’s heartbreaking, Kim. But you’ve managed to find ways to help others despite your challenges. Can you tell me about the work you’re doing online?

KIM: I try to offer free legal advice and counseling online. I never use my name, even that is protected. So, I just offer my first name. It’s rewarding helping.  It’s not the same as being in a courtroom or an office, but it’s a way for me to stay connected to my passion and help people who might not otherwise have access to professional counsel. Some days, it’s really fulfilling. Other days, I feel like I’m just scraping the surface of what I used to be capable of.

CD: But I think that it’s benevolent and encouraging that you’ve found a way to make an impact, even from home. That’s remarkable. I understand you’ve been leaning on your faith throughout this journey. Has it been a comfort to you?

KIM: My faith has been the one thing keeping me afloat, honestly. I read the Bible daily and try to find solace in God’s promises. But I struggle with shame—shame that I haven’t been able to overcome this fear, that I’m still so trapped. I’ve started praying more intentionally, asking the Lord to deliver me from this stronghold. It’s hard, but I’m trying to trust that He has a plan for me. I just feel guilt at times that as a woman of faith, I shouldn’t feel this way. It’s a daily battle and struggle.

CD: Starting therapy must have been a big step for you. What motivated you to take it now, after all these years?

KIM: Honestly, I think I just hit rock bottom. I realized I couldn’t keep living like this—not physically, emotionally, or spiritually. I believe God wouldn’t want me to stay stuck in this fear forever. So, I reached out for help. Therapy has been overwhelming, but I’m hopeful it will help me find the tools I need to move forward.

CD: That’s such a courageous decision, Kim. Taking that first step takes immense strength. As you begin this journey, do you have questions about God or faith that weigh on your heart?

KIM: I do. Why -I often ponder- does God allow us to experience fear so deep and crippling? Is it a test, or is it something we’re meant to grow through? I want to trust Him completely, but it feels impossible sometimes. How can I truly let go of this fear and embrace His love and strength?

CD: Those are profound and meaningful questions, Kim. I believe fear can be a test—a reminder to lean into God’s grace and strength. Letting go of fear is so challenging, especially when it’s been part of your life for so long. But the Bible tells us that God’s perfect love casts out all fear. That it isn’t God who produced fear – and I’m sure that you’ve been around the road with that thought many times over. Maybe therapy and your prayers will help you uncover that strength you’ve been seeking.

KIM: I hope so. I’m starting to feel like maybe there’s a light at the end of this tunnel. Maybe this is the path God wanted me to take—to finally break free from fear and find peace. As a matter of fact, sure it is – God doesn’t want us trapped in a hellish existence.

CD: I agree!  But we are human, and humans are flesh. And flesh is troublesome. Kim, your journey isn’t over, but you’ve taken steps that show incredible bravery. Healing isn’t easy, and it doesn’t happen overnight. But with your faith and your willingness to seek help, I truly believe you’re moving in the right direction. I’d love to stay in touch and see how you’re doing as you continue this journey. Would that be okay? To perhaps have a follow up interview in about six months from now? Perhaps in the fall of 2025?

KIM: Yes!  That means a lot to me, CD. Talking to you has been cathartic. I didn’t realize how much I needed to share this with someone. I’m glad this will be online for others to read, and maybe-just maybe it will connect and help someone sharing a similar experience.

CD: You’re never alone in this, Kim. You have your faith, your furry and finned companions, and now a new chapter of therapy and prayer ahead of you. Remember Isaiah 41:10—God is with you, strengthening and upholding you every step of the way.

KIM: Thank you, CD. I’ll hold onto that scripture and keep praying—for courage, for healing, and for the strength to trust God completely.

CD: Take it one day, one prayer, one step at a time, Kim. I believe you’ll find the freedom and peace you’ve been searching for.

This poignant conversation ends with a glimmer of hope. Kim’s courage and faith, combined with her willingness to seek help, give her a path toward healing. Her journey is far from over, but with each step, she inches closer to freedom from the fear that has suffocated her for so long. I will keep my promise to stay in touch, ensuring she knows she’s supported every step of the way.

The interview took place on the phone. I heard about Kim through an acquaintance of mine, who has known her for years. Due to Kim’s request – nothing more will be revealed about her location, or her last name. Maybe the next time I speak with Kim, she will be able to share more with the readers.

I believe that our God is a healer and eventually Kim will be free in Christ. Sometimes that healing isn’t physical, or emotional – but spiritual.  And to that I say-Amen!

Note: Agoraphobia is a type of anxiety disorder characterized by an intense fear of situations where escape might be difficult or help unavailable, such as crowded places, open spaces, or public transportation. This fear often leads to avoidance behaviors, and in severe cases, individuals may become housebound. According to the National Institute of Mental Health, approximately 1.3% of U.S. adults experience agoraphobia at some point in their lives. The condition is more common in women than men and often begins in adolescence or early adulthood. With proper treatment, such as cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and sometimes medication, about half of those affected can achieve significant improvement or recovery. Early intervention and consistent treatment greatly increase the chances of overcoming this disorder. For more detailed information, you can visit the sites below for further insight.

Agoraphobia – Symptoms and causes – Mayo Clinic

Agoraphobia: What It Is, Causes, Symptoms & Treatment

Agoraphobia – National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH)

About C D SWANSON

C D SWANSON is an Author of 22 plus books, freelance writer, contributor to various websites, including The Bottom Line Ministries/Faith News. She's an active member of Faithwriters- and has her online website/ministry for over 15 years. It is her greatest joy to write what’s in her heart, and thus her favorite form of expression is in her devotionals. She and her husband share a deep love of God and dote on their fur baby Mickey. Retired Director from Long Term Healthcare Industry, she continues to be an advocate for many. To check out other writings of this author you can go here:

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3 comments

  1. It is sad that she has created a prison for herself. She didn’t share why or how her parent’s deaths somehow put these invisible chains on her. We know the keys to freedom are found in Christ no matter the circumstances we find ourselves in. Yet we are all vulnerable while living in this weakened flesh.
    Though it is stated what and why this phobia is real in peoples lives, it has to be a lie of the devil to ensnare them so they are crippled. He comes to steal, kill, and devour so we can credit him for the trap he has set.
    Hoping she has connections in the church and people do come to visit with her in loving fellowship; not in judging her for her response to whatever lead up to this mindset that entangled her.
    May this ordeal be a breakthrough for her and any others that identify with her experiences.
    I am hoping that her next interview will be very different with praise and gratitude for a victorious deliverance that will resonate to those who are afflicted to His honor and glory!

  2. amazing lady and amazing interview.. may this help many

  3. these things are misunderstood..people think that people are using this as an excuse.. but its reality

    I suffer from depression for many years..

    many young girls are killing themselves nowadays.. they are blaming them.. instead of going after the real culprits

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